Mere hathaan diyan lakiran toh tera naam ni mit sakda

Be my guest, mahi

Today... Actually technically yesterday afternoon I ran my 2nd best race of the year, somewhere close yet far away from my PB, but that aside.... It was totally unexpected be'cos I wasnt looking forward to my race at all. There was supposed to be a Semi final & final race, but only 5 pathetic souls turned up, don't know what happened to the other 11. I think it was a total waste of time and effort be'cos I really was looking forward to running a second race ; everything prepared for already. But whatever, it's over.

Now that competition is over, training to qualify for SEA Games is here. I have to really train my heart out, to qualify for it in August. *no jinx* Welcome back muscle cramps, aching days, long training sessions, tiring days and nights, lactic 300metres, stairs training, screaming, shouting and much more pain. I am really quite excited. I can't wait for school to start too, I need to feel busy and stressed. Being free is not my cup of tea.

I'm going to be Bigger, Better, Stronger, Faster. :) & I cant waitoooo!

Khush Hoon EH?

The past few days have been a rather big eye opener for me, and for a few friends. Watching how some people grow up to be who no one ever expects them to be and pretend to be. The most important thing is the trust I still have been able to maintain with BFF throughout this whole crazy shit.

It's better to know you've got at least one standing than a whole lot pretending to be your best friend. Girl, you should learn something. Wait hang on a min, you're just 15. Act your age. No one likes Virgin girls to pretend they have been fcked. Just fyi.

My 100m race is just a few hours away, and I have this Butterflies thing flying in my stomach. (Really haywire) but the fact that I am controlling it makes it better becos then, I dont have the urge of going to the toilet every 5 mins! Bestie, lefty, sister and Jagz are coming down today too, I hope they make it on time :) I'm soo excited!

I get so fcking annoyed everytime something comes out in the papers about athletics. Just PISSES me off even more. And more, and even more so just 2 days before my race.

Do ghut peelay ah nasha pyar da peelay

I'm in Temask Poly right now using Vikesh's puny laptop while Vikesh and Manisha dearest are talking/doing project/doing maths homework. I saw a few people I know in TP and Jagroop kept saying this guy was goodlooking but I think he looks like crap.

TP aside, I had a really good dream last night. I wonder why :D

National Juniors is just a few days away, and I seriously (like the way Salim Khan says it in Superstar) don't know how to feel. Today is also my coach's birthday. Sadly I am not there to celebrate it with him, but nvm. I get to miss good cake and fun but all will be over after Saturday.

I went for relaxing massage and Whirlpool recovery in hope to feel good. :) Indeed. Sorry bordem, BYE I'm going to eat my french fries and grow fattterr :D

I feel like being random, but IM SO SO SO HAPPY TO SEE M AND V TOGETHER, J AND R TOGETHER, and soon J AND J TOO (hopefully hehe) and this feels like how I get so excited and happy to see Chuck and Blair together... And omg, IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU ALLLL!!!!!!!!!! :) Wurve wurveeee.

Anyway, this holidays are eating me up inside. I am a pathetic Diploma to be student waiting to get attached to an Organization who just gets ready everyday for training at 4pm by tidying up her room, washing up, having breakfast, using the computer & have lunch and breakfast. :( I was considering playing computer games. Something like getting addicted to Neopets! HAHA. I used to love playing it in Primary 6... Why not again right? Will let you all know I go back ... :P

♥

Chuck: I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went, you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
Blair: I want to believe you, but I can't. You've hurt me too many times.
Chuck: Then believe me this time.
Blair: That's it?
Chuck: I love you, too.
Blair: Can you say it twice? No, I'm serious, say it twice.
Chuck: I love you, I love you, I love you.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Dark vs Light

Hi, 2am is the latest I have slept after I think eons... I am so freaking tired/sleepy... But so much is running through my head. I don't know what I really am doing now in life.. I am having the Balpreet Love-Hate relationship with myself now, probably due to my upcoming week of the month I guess.

I feel like getting Livejournal so that I can rant some Private stuff down & lock it up instead of keep having to watch some words I use for the sake of myself and ... yeah well myself. And from some people.

Right now, I want a cold cup of fresh Orange juice with the pulp-y bits, I want to sleep and never get up, I want my internship e-mail to be replied so I can get started, I want you to stop torturing me, I want to live my own world and .... I basically just wanna be 19 ok. Leave me alone please just leave me be ok.

Where is the buzz?

My fanatic

"No I'm serious, say it twice" :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_f43iK4Hgs

Don't watch the following link if you haven't watched Episode 25 of GG and not interested in spoilers. Haha. ;)

I think the world is deafffffffffff. How can Kris Allen win when I think only ONE of the 3 songs he sang was good :( I mean I like Kris tooooo, but Adam sang ALL THREE SONGS well. Too well. He was unique, his voice was a XXXXXX factor.... Kris was so plain ... And he needed to shave his MOUSTACHE OKAY. :( :( :( :( Besides, they both said to the media " Vote us for our performance, not our religion....." YOU SEEE. :( BLEHH

My last teenage year.

I had ...... By far the bestest birthday ever thanks to..... Everyone that matters in my life. Thank you everyone for putting in even the Slightest effort becos it made SOOO much of a difference. I think I smiled so much today, okay technically, since 15 may since some friends wanted to celebrate my birthday earlier....

I got treated to Botak Jones where I had the most delicious fries and loudest ever birthday song and many other people whom I never saw before singing together with me while I had my biggest surprise last night when the class of AUT 08 came sneakily up with an awesome powsume chocolate cake, woke me up while they sang to my 19th birthday as well as greatttttt Indian food for dinner today with my dearest family, I got calls from some very valuable friend(s) to wish me a happy birthday and make me smile just even more......

Thank you everyone from the bottom of my Heart, and all the wins I got from majong yesterday(hahaha)... I love you all very much.

THANK YOU BFFFF, I LOVE U TOO

May. 16th, 2009 02:37 pm mood: happy
I still remember every single memory with you. When we were in primary school, we used to spend every holiday together. We'd take turns to go to each others' houses and we would play truth or dare, UNO (our fav game!) prank call people, make fun of each other with boys, have a party, buy food etc etc. On saturdays, our parents used to take us out. You, I, Jas, My bro and our mums. We went to every single place together. The beach, Escape, Wild wild wet, swimming etc. We celebrated all our brithdays together. We even celebrated our family birthdays together. Youve been at every single occassion in my family. My granny's 80th. My mum's bday, Deepavali and New years. In primary 6, boys were like the main topic and you knew every single guy I liked and I did too and we would share our secrets. I remember how you werent happy cos of all the pimples that started appearing and you used to be upset but I guess it was just a phase. Still that didnt stop the boys....... (Emails!) *cough cough* (: I remember how we used to wish we were neighbours. I remember how I looked forward to coming over your house and how we used to beg our parents if we could have sleepovers. I remember the time we went to Thailand together with our families. I still have the pictures we took at the zoo with you holding the baby tiger cub and I was next to you with my wimp face. When we went on the secondary school, we had countless amount of fights which led to us not talking to each other for weeks and even months. Our hair became shorter and shorter as time went by. We were much older so we used to go out without our parents. We still had sleepovers and I still told you everything. You.. had talent and a gift. Running. You went to Sports school. I remember I went to 1 or 2 of your competitions and I was so proud of you. we only used to meet on Saturdays in Punjabi School. We still had our fair share of fun during temple camps where we did all the nonsense together. In sec 3 and 4, We found new friends and we drifted for sometime. I think it was also because of our fights. In Poly, we became closer again. We had so many fun times like stuffing ourselves with food,watching countless of movies, going to temple.. You had D and I had M and Im glad that didnt drift us apart. We STILL had sleepovers and I remember the one time you slept over my house and we sneaked out of the house to go to Clarke Quay. I saw you thru the worst trying to heal a broken heart and we became real close. You were so strong to try to achieve everything when you were hurting inside. You are still so strong when it comes to everything and I envy you for that cos Im the total opposite. Its been 13 years and I wouldnt change anything about the past. You're still there for me and I value our friendship very very much. When your away overseas for competition, I'd always feel like something is missing. You're the first person I would turn to for anything. You never fail to pick up my call when I need to rant to you, you're always giving me the best advice and I listen to it. I know you werent happy about some of the things and decisions Ive made in the past but you tolerated it cos I was happy. You always make an effort to meet me, you still share everything with me like I do too, Your mum's is like a mum to me too giving me advice and your still my form of motivation and my role model. You just know how to make me feel better. Im so proud of you. Youve achieved so much in life. All the competitions youve won which open up new doors for you.. the opportunities youve got. Everything. I'll always want the best for you.Thanks for being the greatest friend ever and I hope I was half of the friend I should be to you too. I know Ive done things that friends shouldnt do like putting others before you and neglecting you and ditching you sometimes. I know for sure no one would ever be able to take your place. Youve practically been like family watching me grow up. I hope we'll always be best friends always . Like even when we're 40 and your kids and my kids will be friends and hang out like we did. I love you alot Balpreet.I hope you have the best 19th cos you deserve it. I also hope you find your prince charming sooon but first he'll need to go thru an interview with me.. SO NO MALAYSIANS OR FOREIGNERS PLEASE! *Wink Wink*Haha! I cant wait to see you tmrw!

BD

I came back last night close to 12 midnight from my not so fun trip from the Arafura games. From what I remember, Arafura games was supposed to be full of fun and excitement because shopping always was supposed to make us happy. This trip we hardly shopped because everything just seemed to expensive and the group of girls were incomplete becos some still had competitions the next day.

We ended up going to the Beach and taking random shots like tourists usually do and got burnt in the process becos the sun was a major Bitch with a capital B. My birthday's in 2 days and I am going to have a red-and darker looking face as well as heat rash pimples all over it becos of the sun. How very wonderful. I don't feel 19 yet, why is everything coming on me so fast? I'm not ready yet. As my friends can also tell, I haven't really been counting down to my birthday like how I did last year.

Hello Arafura, goodbye Mukerjeeeee

Finally........ EXAMS ARE OVERR. Today was the toughest paper of them all also because I hardly touched my book, but it's okay. I still managed to answer everY question with enough words to fill the empty spaces. That made me feel really good. Now just thinking about it, I have 1 semester left before I graduate! How fast is that?

Today, I am also flying off to Australia for the Arafura Games! I was so excited since the last 3 months or so because of the SHUUUUPPPINGGGGGGGG. Not to forget we're gonna have so much fun watching GG, Big Bang Theory, One tree hill.... And many more if Dipna has them on her Harddrive. Oooo me gosh. What a way to celebrate for my post exams :) Oh and also, wearing masks in the plane because of the h1n1 thingy. I soooo need to take pictures of that. HAHAHA

I met my B.F.F and lefty just now for lunch at New York New York and the Cheesy Chicken just filled my rather empty stomach and watering mouth! I feel so good now!!

Anyway I better get going. I have to be at the airport at 8pm and I have yet to pack my 6 to 7 days worth of clothes, bathe, clear up my room, have dinner and relax... I only have a few 2 to 3 hours left. Tick tock.........

God help the weak

Manisha why you so emo :(

How do people ever feel Frustrated, Paranoid, Depressed and Stressed all at the same time? Be'cos I happen to be able to do that.... :(

Why doesn't training help me feel stress free and shitty-ness free? :(

I need a good rest, a lot of time to study for my exams, some freaking social life becos mine is rather pathetic with this exam situation so near but yet so far, some real deep tissue massage... AN OVERSEAS damn freaking trip after exams on the 8th of May becos Arafura Games got cancelled due to the stupid swine Flu. Oh damn you pigs