Thursday, November 27, 2008

Wish with me for the dreams we planned ahead

The Pacific School Games Start List is out! Coach called to tell me there are only 12 participants in the 100m U18-19. Joker!

Event 466 Girls 100 metres 18/19 years Prelims
Saturday 6/12/2008 - 9:10 AM
Comp# Name Year Team

1 17 Melissa Breen 90 Act
2 377 Caryn Brett 90 Nsw
3 711 Jessica 90 Nsw
4 866 Sarah Thomson 90 Nsw
5 899 Kimberly Watton 90 Nsw
6 1164 Bethany Struthers 90 Nzl
7 1475 Kelly Lawson 90 Qld
8 1873 Sarah Thomas 90 SA
9 1908 Balpreet Kaur Purba 90 Sin
10 1938 Kiara Chambers 90 Tas
11 1939 Hannah Chapman 90 Tas
12 2015 Caitlin Richardson 90 Tas


Okay, this is getting a bit more exciting. :)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

What makes you stronger

AN ATHLETE ......

... Sacrifices friends for training...
... Soaks in sweat after a hard day's work out...
... Aches from all the pain from ONE day's exercises...
... Goes through a lot of mental psychology...
... Has to fight all odds to be the best...
... Is deprived of too much social life activities...
... Becomes fitter & stronger...
... Is the only occupant with a laborious job...
... Experiences great moments no other can...

That's what makes us so special, be'cos no other can do it.

Anyway, my hair's so long alr, I can't decide if I should keep it or not.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Oh Piriyah piriyah Oh Piriyah.....

Hi Diary,

Today was so super tiring, thanks to T Piriyah who made me walk here & there to find for towels, Bras, water bottle & what not. So anyway that's not the point. I still had fun with her. She makes me feel young all over again ( Not as if I am very old ) , and I love it! But I still want to grow older faster... I want to know what I will be doing in life, how much I will be earning ;P & of cos, if I do end up with a life partner.

So after my favourite Ban Mian at Banquet, Piriyah got me in the mood of shopping, thus I got a PROPER water bottle, finally, again... Sadly there weren't any nice Adidas or Puma ones.


Piriyah got so irritated with me, cos I did not want a Nike water bottle. I had no choice in the end! This was the best....


I was bored, while Piriyah was talking to NUMBER 5 online, I decided to take pictures of them =) & of Dearest Piriyah when she was young! Wasn't she a dolllll ;)


Awwwww! Cute cute

Not to forget the TOWEL we bought together, because Piriyah insisted on one. HAHA, she loves me thus wants something that only the 2 of us have. I really loved this towel, but Piriyah kept saying it looked like a carpet. -.- at you Piriyahhh. Anyway, the colours are so bright, so young, so loving. Haha =)



Went over to her place, & saw this soo beautiful portrait of this lady! So nice ;) & traditional, yo. Sadly, I did not get to take a picture with her Dog be'cos she was TOO friendly. She licked me sticky. Imagine!



Signing offfff....

You are the past, I am the present, I look into the future

Hi Diary,

Great-o. So I didn't manage it well, I started it good, I ended it the best I could. Bye bye useless-ness & un-civilization & welcome new-ness.

This whole Pacific School Games is in less than a week's time from now. I really don't know what I am doing, where I am heading. I just know I still gotta study, & I've always wanted to ask where does this "career" in sports lead me to. Can anyone answer my query? Where is my support? How often does success come to me anyway?

I feel I am always left alone to answer these questions myself.. To try & make myself feel better, I am positive to myself. But I don't think that's enough.... I am falling back, I need help. I want to give up & I could easily do so, but what's stopping me? I don't know. Why can't I just enjoy life without this pressure, without this tension, without everyone telling me to be a championn. What if I just can't be one, what if I don't see myself being one? Will everyone then just stop bugging me?

I want to live a normal life. Why can't I just?

Life bugs, it forever will.

Signing off...

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I still don't understand why you still come into my dreams
We've drifted apart, 5 years & counting...
It's so weird, I keep wishing you'll talk to me again one day.
I'm still waiting I guess. Why do I even bother?
Is this really the attraction you draw up...
I want to hate you, but it's so difficult to, even after knowing how much you do.
Don't you just remember the times.....
I pray these dreams become reality one day. God please

Friday, November 21, 2008

What's that right there

Hi Diary,

Today I went to watch HSM 3 with Piriyah. Ha ha, yes I know I'm such a lag-tardy, I haven't gone to watch that movie yet. So anyway, the usual Troy & Gabrellia so hot, blah blah blah. Cute couple. I enjoyed the songs very much, but dearest Piriyah kept complaining about the number of songs there were in the Musical. Ha ha, & her *sighs* every time a new song plays.

Anyway, tmr I'm going for waxing *wink wink* Ha ha. & then to Wild Wild Wet with fellow teammates. =) Exciteddd much!

Got to go now, dinner timeeee

Signing offff.....

Thursday, November 20, 2008

I am soo tired.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I will try to be more civilized

Dear Diary,

This should be a better, & more civilized post from yesterday's release of results. ( Ha ) Fine, so I expected to get at least 2 Cs for my papers. When Jon told me results were out, the momster and myself were watching some video online .. I quickly switched it off & soon realized my shirt was getting wet with perspiration! ( My instincts told me I was scared! ) HAHA. Somehow, maybe be'cos I'm soo dumb, I couldn't seem to log into the stupid portal to view my results. This was scaring me even more! I mean who can wait for the results, knowing they're already out right?

Anyway, after getting my results, I realized what surprised me most was my Management results. I was praying hard for a B- & that also I thought would be impossible to attain! I'm reallyy soooo happy, I didn't just get a B but a B PLUSSS! :) Now I am able to fully concentrate on PSG which is a week's time without any worry at the back of my mind about re-sitting for any paper. Phew! Relief!

PSG = checking out hot guys, & challengingly a new PB for myself. ( I shan't say coach made me )

A random fact : I love listening to old hindi songs. They are so awesomeeeee & have so much more meaning :) Currently listening to Taj Mahal songs! So relaxing.com! Anyway I better go back to watching One Tree Hill series. I haven't visited them since 5 days I think.

Training laterzzzzz. ENTHUzzzz.com ..... Blehzz.

Signing off....


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

SEM 2!

I DID BETTER THAN EXPECTED FOR EXAMSSSSSSSS!!!! WOOOHOOOOPIEEEEEEEEE :)

Motivation = B-
Management = B something?
Applied Anatomy = A- (WOWWWW)
Nutrition = B something?

I LOVE MY LECTURERSSSSS! Thanks for passing meeeeee. SO FAR NO C's. Thank god. Thank GOD.

OMG. I CAN GO ON. OMG. (So bimbotic man!)

Dekhne Mein Bhoola Hai, Dil Kaa Salona

My current favourite song ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEOFCB74yuE&NR=1



Monday, November 17, 2008

WHAT WHY HOW

Diary,

Training tomorrow @ 9am alll the way @ woodlands. God bless me. I have not gotten out of bed before 11 am for the past week.

I'm gonna make it. I'm challenging myself. I must sleep now.

Goodnight

Signing offf....

I wonder if you even realize, you are a part

Bird with angel like wings

Without a word, You steal my heart.
I'll find happiness by your side. I can't stay apart.
My life tastes sweet now, since you walked through that door.
When you warp your arms around me, I know I've found my shore.
Sweep through the streets of my mind like a gentle spring
Walk through the corridors of my heart, fill the caravans of my dreams.
I sway to the song of your soul
You will be my love bird.


Saturday, November 15, 2008

Chaaha Hai Tujko

Hey Diary!

My day started off with me waking up at 12.25pm thanks to the momsy shouting " Do you know what the time is already!? " Haha. Anyway, went for facial with the monsy after "lunch" be'cos I was soo bored @ home! Needed something to do & to be outta the home.

Came home & realised my room was in a total MESS! ( Yeah, I just realised.... :/ ) So, I decided to be a brave girl & clean up the WHOLE room by myself! You can bet it was tiring... It really was. But now I feel so accomplished, knowing everything's so spick & span! No more dust, no more messiness. Ha, my room looks like an exhibition area, and the momsy said it doesn't " look practical " Haha, whatever I still love it. I'm starting to love my room all over again.. Heh heh heh :)


(My study table)

(Part of my colourful bed sheet!)

(My Dressing table)

I'm so tired, my back is aching & my hands feel "fresh" from all the wiping of the cupboards & tables. I'm going to sleep now, and wake up early to clean my wardrobe full of clothes that half of the time I don't wear!

I'm so glad nothing comes for free, be'cos tomorrow afternoon the sister, momsy & me will be going to Malaysia to pamper our hairs & do some shopping. Can't wait!!

Till then,
Balzieeeeee signing off!

Friday, November 14, 2008

This Friday

Hi Diary!

Today in the morning I met Aqilah & Dipna for the planning for the Yr 1 next year's orientation, & Im so exciteddddddd :D So so excited! I just hope the Yr 1's all have fun tooo, after all, we're putting our heart & soul into making this a success & an interested one at that! :) I can't wait to get started on preparations and all those props stuff! I think I can't wait for alot of things to happen this year, before it ends! And it gets even more exciting knowing they are soooo within my reach :) :) Anyway, we had super yummy chicken leg with DAMN good sauce @ the cafe in the AMK library! Soo good food, yum yum. ( I could feel my stomach expanding, my saliva dropping.... Good food! )

For training today I was being the laziest bum I think. I refused to stretch & do drills, so I sat at one corner while the rest of them did theirs. Watched how everyone actually have their strengths & weaknesses in different drills ( DUH! ) & kept telling myself how lazy I was. Even after feeeling so guilty, it did not stop me from sitting on the COLD steps, watching the rest. :P Surprisingly though, I did a Personal Best for both my 120 metres today, so wow. Instead of being happy for me, coach started scolding me ( of cos with that Russian accent ) saying " You have a chicken heart! " WOW. OUCH! Well, he meant, I always chicken out during competitions & he can't understand why I do so well during training, but not in competitions ( ;) ) HAHA. So .... Being me, I got angry, thus ran even faster for my second 120 metres.

Anyway, I cabbed back home with Dessie & Daniella, and Im all alone @ home now. & hungry too! THAT REMINDS ME! I still haven't eaten my Kinder Bueno! Haha! CHAOOOZ :D

Signing offff.....

Thursday, November 13, 2008

How can a useless post harm ya?

Right, Hi Diary

I haven't really got the time to update about the outing with Manishazzzzz, but it was fun! I also found out her dirty lil secret, something for which I CAN KILL HER FOR! HAHA. But, omg! I'm still so innocent man. :P Anyway, we gotta go food hopping AFTER my Games in Dec! Omg, I can't wait to eatttttt & holiday! :D

Today, I woke up late to catch up on my sleep a lil bit.. Thus it ended pretty fast for me. The school had their Grad Night today too, & I couldn't be bothered to go. I mean, ... Why should I? ( Shit, I sound so arrogant, but Im not! I HATE THE BULL! ) & the way they treat us students.

And of cos, we did blocks today. Ha, I felt sooooooo "good" :) -ugh.

Signing off....


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

SUCK

Hi Diary..

I think Im falling sick. This weather's just making me feel so confused. Well maybe also be'cos I stayed up 3 + am last night & woke up at 8 today to watch One Tree Hill. Yeah, yeah the OTH Fever kicking in.

Anyway, training has be horrible these past few days. I'm looking forward to PSG though, I really am. I just don't know about my competition. I saw my videos of my block starts that were taken by Mr Tai & I have 2 words : I SUCK.


This life is taking a toil on me
I don't know which direction I am supposed to be heading

Signing off....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Diary!

Omg, One Tree Hill is toooo good. Its like never-ending, its so amazinggg :) & their stories never fail to impress me! Gosh. Im so tempted to go on.... But I got ta sleep. Goodnight folks. Goodnight blog.


Is it too much to wish for something like you?

How do you spell weird

Dear Diary,

Today was a weird sort of a day... I don't know how I managed to get through 3/4 of it, but I know I did. Like for example, I badly did not to do sprints today, but I purposely brought my spikes from home so I could use it today. Weird? I've been getting this super weird feeling about track, and running and just my sporting "career" to be exact. All these years I kept telling myself Im getting better each year, my timings have cut each year too. But judging from my arm actions, my stride lengths, my horrendous block starts, my big fat stomach.... I have only one thing to conclude : I was never talented, I just had more speed. Not technique, not mental.

Anyway, since this post is already so full of shit, and I feel so weird right now, I shall go resume watching One Tree Hill, something less weird.

Btw, I had a really beautiful dream last night. How I wish that dream did come true, & all these silent treatments will be vanished! I want to go back to when we used to talk about your sport, my sport, and all those stupid silly things we did.

Signing offf.....

Sunday, November 9, 2008

What a day!

Diary,

I went to the temple today!! After eons man. =) I felt so good. Eating Parsard & the Langar food :) Of course not to forget, on my way to temple, my slipper broke be'cos the momsy tried walking faster, thus the slipper could not handle much anymore and broke. So I ditched my broke slipper & walked up the bus to temple slipper-less. ( It really wasn't that embarrassing, especially after the momsy told me that " this is the way people should go to temple" Haha. :) I felt pretty holy for that moment!



Momsy started counting the number of black moles I have on my face, I think it was 13 or 14. Wow! Cool ain't it :P

After temple, the momsy & me went to collect our photos from the photoshoot! I'm so sad I din't look good in the pictures we took as a fam :( But, nevertheless, its pretty cool :) We all look so happy togetherrrrr! :D





Came home after that, & rested a bit before the momsy & sister decided to go to JB to go get sis's prom dress. How im-prompt! Anyway, she finally got her desired outfit, and I think she looks pretty good in that. ( That's even without makeup, doing her hair, accessories etc etc.. ) Her heels were super cool though! I envy her for thattt. Sadly, she's 2 damn feet sizes bigger than me, so no chance of me stealing them from her!



She refused to let me take her face, so here's what I've got. =)

I'm so shagged! I think I'm gonna knock off soon. Goodnight world, my fellow friends, beloved angels, & darling one. =)

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Oh god tusi great ho

Diary...

Pictures from Class Day!


Zeteng & Moii


Us during Volleyball, :)

Most of the YR 2s, including Ms Tng & 2 Iran men.

Us, again!

Aqilah, the spicy Bee Hoon girl :) & Maybe my twin :P

Me, My fellow friend who loves Beckham too, Jaz & Daph!

Zeteng, me, Jq, Ting2,Bern,Sam & Linglin

TODAY:
Went to watch Fashion today! Priyanka Chopra was hot ballz. I mean, I would kill to have a body like that. LOL. Anyway, the show was so draggy, and it went on & on about the life of a model. ( Like hello, I don't care... ) I think it was a crap movie. I'd prefer emotional types, the ones where you can cry, and laugh and feel in love for the couple acting... Hoho!


Anyway, she looks so good here!

I better go! Bye!

Signing offf.........

Class Day

Dear Diary,

Today.. Actually last evening on my way to Sentosa for Class Day, I was listening to 98.7 FM and one of the Djs mentioned something like this : " Men love their wives/girlfriends but have affairs be'cos they find lust in other girls. Women on the other hand have affairs be'cos they could be either sick of their current husband/boyfriend or are just not serious. Thus, Men are more forgivable, Women are more forgiving. " I really laughed. It was funny, but ain't it so true :)

Okay back to Class Day! At Sentosa! WITH LOTS OF SAND. Omg lah ( But the sand hated me okay. Once I stepped into the sandy area, I had so many bitezzzz. Ugh! ) So anyway, we played V-ball with the YR 2s, it was so fun! I mean no one really cared how horridly we surfed the ball, be'cos truth to be told, even the guys couldn't play thatttttt well :P It was a cool kinda bonding, with a few self obsessed shots of us :P, junking like crazyy ( gosh, I can already picture coach's russian accent shouting at me .... ) and maybe pretending to be "emo" with dearest Zt while we walked the shore of the beach. And maybe a few glimpses of those hot and sexy bikinis girls out there, wishing I had a body like them.. Yeah, it was a day! :D

Class Day covered up my horrandous training this afternoon. It really did. Shan't spoil this oh-so-beutiful post! :) Tmr I'm going to watch Fashion with Jang & sister ! Im choooo happy. =)
Till then!

Signing offf

Friday, November 7, 2008

Lost

Dear Diary,

Is it true that what you think of yourself is not as "true" as what people think of you? I feel so lost. Some say you know yourself better than any one else.. People out there may not know what your full picture paints, but I guess.. You never actually know what you may be portraying may have a different effect on someone else.... They may not be thinking what you are of yourself. Ugh.

Today is not a good day.

[a=1][c=9]JAGU(: [/c][/a] says:
maybe all i want is fer someone to undersatnd what i'm saying u noe..
ABRAHAM says:
I understand u
ABRAHAM says:
And I have been barking like a dog to tell u how to get around it, but do you listen?
ABRAHAM says:
You just keep harping on the fucking PROBLEM ITSELFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This may explain why...

Why do such things happen. Oh Lord. I'm so sick & tired of this repeating itself.

Signing off

why do the smallest things you do affect me the most


Thursday, November 6, 2008

Under the stars

Diary,

One Tree Hillsssssss have been rockin' my world! So awesome.com.sg :D

Ok bye I'm gonna go for massage soon :)

Signing offf....

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

MORONIC FCUKING SHARK

YOU ARE THE BIGGEST JACK ASS I'VE KNOWN. I MEAN CAN'T YOU ALREADY SEE YOU LOOK LIKE A BLOODY REPTILE.... WHAT THE FCUKING HELL ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE? THAT YOU ARE A COMPLETE MORONIC IDIOT? I THINK YOU ALREADY PROVED THAT. FCUK YOURSElF MAN. OOOPS. I FORGOT REPTILE DONT UNDERSTAND.

I FEEL LIKE CUTTING OFF YOUR DICK MAN .. WAIT, MAYBE YOU DONT HAVE ONE.. THATS WHY YOU SAY "HIE AND BYE" LIKE A PUSSY.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Everything that doesn't make your difference...

Dear Diary,

I'm in sis's room now. Sleeping over. The air-con's on, and its blowing directly at me. I feel so cold, my fingers are numb.. I'm guessing my blood flow in my fingers are constricted, thus my slow typing. Yet .. I don't feel like covering up, to make myself feel a bit warmer. I like it this way.

Its 10.30pm, and my sister's fast asleep. I'm still wide awake be'cos I slept for 3 hours to reduce tolerating my cramps. Yes, today is my First day. How shitty. I tried reading a book my sister got for me today from the library.. I'm sucha lazy bum ass, I closed the book after 10 pages of reading. Ugh!

Anw, the hamster's better now :) She's soooo adorable, she makes me smile. Who says only friends do that ? :)
I'm gonna try fall asleep now, I'm tired.. Just not sleepy. Cramps please go away

Signing off,

Monday, November 3, 2008

What a life!

Diary,

The hammie's lookin' so much better than morning. SO DAMN thankful. Gosh. I couldn't stop thinking of her, my training mood was kinda s
poilt too be'cos of that. That lil brat's actually perfectly FINE now. Except we discovered it wasn't her leg that was injured. It was her eye till her nose. I think it's internal bleeding.. :( (No wonder she was bleeding in her mouth) :( Shit. This sounds so sad. She gotta live long long more!!! She's so injury prone. Blah. Hate to see her like that..

Anyway, I was cam-whoring recently, and I managed to capture some cute shots. (ha-ha) Nice eh! :P


So self absorbed.

I was trying to take my ear-ring! Isn't it so cool!

Training today was 150m x 3. Timings were so fugling slow, but I felt so good. (Dont ask me why. I dk why)
& Val came down to meet us too :) Tmr same routine again... Except that maybe training's a lil earlier.


Signing off...


To you: Cut the pretentious acts. Im sick of you, more of your face, and most be'cos you are so cunning. Get yourself a life and don't depend on other's for one. Oh one more thing, go take a picture under an Old Chankee Roof. Remember you were foolish once, don't make that stupid mistake again.

Bebe I love u

Dear Diary,

Mummy woke me up so early this morning to tell me this : " Balpreet, I think the white hamster died" I swear my heart skipped a beat. I was like no way, she is too young to die. Sister was carrying her by the time I jumped out of bed, heading for the kitchen. I'm so grateful that Jas did not confirm what mummy said. Instead she told me Bebe (the hamster) was still breathing but, she was in a great deal of pain. We could see it, she was practically bitting her upper gum of her mouth, and when mummy tried giving her water, she started bleeding. We all go so scared. She got better though, but I saw her crying in her cage. I dared not take her out, in case I accidentally grabbed her injured leg.

She's healing pretty fast though. And I hope god gives her a speedy recovery! Except that now she has an injured leg, but its too early to go to the Vet, be'cos they only open at TEN. :( Arghhh. I don't wanna loose that precious thing. Love her too much.

Bebe recover fast! Love u to bitzzzzz

Signing off

Sunday, November 2, 2008

You ma Hero

Dear Diary,

I met Jang after a reall long time. Went out to watch Heroes. I'm beginning to like Salman Khan again. I think he's so heroic :) And he's cuteee, I loved his acting in Heroes. Whatta hero. Okay, I shant spoil the movie for those who want to go catch it. Def worth it.. But also very very sad. :(

Anyway, Jang made fun of me posting my posts starting off with "dear diary". Stupid girl. ( I know you're reading this. And I bet you're smiling to yourself. ) Misss you & had lottas fun. Take care & eat 2 panadols. Go sleep fatty.



Maybe I'm just living with this lie.

The sense

I am sooo freaking frustrated now! Why can't some people get some sense of timing!? Like how on earth can they tolerate to be late, and seee their friend waiting.. So fcuking irritating I tell you! What's worse, don't even give a damn.. Just continue taking your own bloody fcuking sweet time. Some people I tell you they are. Gawd. Curse at you lah.