You cant be anymore of a dick head so please stop trying. I hate youuuuuuuuuuu get out of my life.

I feel so proud of myself today... I did all my work today. I managed to complete (Kinda) all my Sports fucking ANALysis work. And.... I trained! Even though I was sick and having a terrible headache.

Piriyah taught me a few Tamil words today like 1 to 5 and A B C in tamil and there was this weirdd tamile guy sitting infront of me in the MRT staring while laughing to himself becos I was prolly making a fool out of myself. But it's ok. I learnt not to say "5" in tamil the way I do becos it actually meant the guyssss weeee weeeeeeee hahahha. Thanks P for teaching me! :P

V V V V V V V V V

You can't keep coming into my dreams and expect everything to be okay with me you know.. You can't do that. Not everytime. Not anytime.

She is no you

Sigh

This PT exam... Yeah, its taking a toil on me! I can't stand it anymore.... I've been mugging for a few hours and everytime I tell myself I know what I'm studying, I remember my classmates telling me that "Its A VERY TOUGH PAPER. The questions they ask don't come from the book."

Okay, seriously. What the hell am I studying for then? ARGHHH. It's so frustrating..... Knowing I and another classmate are the morons left back in 1 paper and this 4 days before the paper is KILLING ME. I slept in the afternoon just now and I dreamt my paper was just Minutes away.... And to tell you honestly, I felt so unprepared. I'm confusing. I feel prepared, like I feel I just studied everything, but there is the other side....... That's telling me " NOOOO its never enough "

I don't know if its this stress shit thats making me feel so crappy. I'm actually falling sick.... And I hope this isn't going to be. I have a god damn exam in 4 days, I cannot afford to miss it. I can't afford to not study and GET BETTER, if you know what I mean. I actually also miss my outside friends. I'm such an anti-socialist now, Its hurting so bad. I miss them all.

Like I am going to post in every other post that I blog, ..... I have 5 FREAKING WEEKS.

4 days to PT theory

14 days (2 weeks) to Practicum Presentation

22 days (3 weeks) to Sports Analysis

25 days (3 weeks) to Practicum Submission

37 days (5 weeks) to PT Practical

39 days (5 weeks) to Sports Recreational

Everyday I look at this timetable on my study table and I wish that everyday at LEAST ONE of the papers was over already..... I wish too much.

After all this is my only motivation left to studyyyyy till I probably die. I better get back to some ass shit and my runningly-red-full-of-mucus-nose.....

F*ck your theories

I want to watch the Time travellers wife! And The Ugly Truth! 5 weeks..... Just 5 weeks left.

Anyway, coming back to serious training without slacking because coach is back is not quite as I expected it to be. I'm missing it, & I'm actually liking it. Partly because the weather the past few days have been quite good. Training yesterday at 11am was GOOD because the Sun only came out when I was going home..... Further more, I have such funny training partners... They kinda make training always a tad better! :)

Ok, enough. I need to get back to writing my SAA Report, just that I'm having writter's block. I don't know how to start, even though I have all the information in me. Ugh.

Change

Dipna told me this today during training. "You cannot commit ah?" That really came as a shock to me.

I had the whole afternoon after that to think to myself. Maybe she's right. I can't. I dont think I wanna. It's too much. I can't commit. Its so easy right, just yeah.

These 2 days since coach came back has been sooo freaking long. I woke up at 5am yesterday to go for a 1.5 hour gym observation. It was totally not worth my cab fare and energy to getting up. I spent the whole day out and only got home at 8plus at night. Today yet another day. I dont want to start with it.

Right now, I just need to get over my semester four exams, I need to run a race. I miss competing. I miss the feeling of being there.

My stomach hurts. I mean, abs... That are just no where close to be called abs. Yeah, they hurt. I cann't laugh.

I don't know why but I smell Durians. I think something is really wrong with me because I know this House doesn't have any at this present moment and I F-ing HATE durians.

Did I mention every damn small thing today has been pissing the HELL out of me? Is it because I went to temple. Ha. Irony. Joke. God wants to punish me.

Akk

Exams are coming up. 6 weeks before we are officially done with AUT. I can't believe I made it through. I was expecting so much more stress than this, ( this is actually quite bad ) but i'm so gladddd. Its coming to an end! We're actually ( touch wood ) graduating on the 26th of feb next year. OMG. I'm going to be 20 and so many things are going to change... I'm going to try working for the first time in my life andd omggg everythings changing.

All that apart, I need CHEESY SAUSAGES. soooo badly. I haven't had them since I came back from Germany. I want mango lingo, chilli crabs - insert cute face at Manisha. I want Crystal Jade I want so many things omg I forgot I want Hokkein Mee and Frolick. Fooodddd come to me.

Jab tu muskurati ho

I dont know if it's just me or all the computers in this house is fcked. Damn bloody annoying. I can't even upload some decent pictures here. And my god damn computer just won't switch on.

Yesterday I had masala crabs with Jang, Rohit, Jagz, Sis, Manisha and Vikz. Except that only me and Manisha ate the crabs while every other loser one just ate the normal rice and curry. It was so awesome I think I'm going back there one more time. No two.. Maybe three or four or many more times. I have a sudden craving for it again, like I miss breaking the shells with my teeth and stuff.. Manisha, one day, just you and me k. :)

Anyway, I know I haven't been blogging in forever. Suddenly school has started and the bloody internet is just a bore because everything I see is the same ol' shit.

Piriyah: " Eh add me on my Livejournal okay. Its private. Only friends can see."
ME: "Okay okay I will but my livejournal got someone hack."
Piriyah: " Okay then I help you make new one lah. But I don't know how to add friends"

HAHAHA. Piriyah so cute sometimes!