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There are 2 types of people in this world. The first who loves taking advantage of people, and the latter that is always being taken advantage of.

WHY THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK am I always the latter!!!!? I'm going MAD.

Million times over

I happen to have this race in a coupla days, 2 actually, and all that's in my head instead of running is chilli crabs, partying, drinking and enjoying myself . I know... I'v been telling myself too, what a great way of preparing for the race. Lol.. Still not gonna stop me from craving!!!!!

I'm pretty sure you wouldn't be able to resist this too. Mouth is watering, exactly like how Sasha does when she sees us eating infront of her ;) My sister and friends are going for chilli crabs today :( And drinking too. Me? I'll be preparing myself for Sunday. And after thatttt it's all chilli crabs, it's holiday, it's freedom

I've been sneezing a little too much today, and yesterday. As much as I think Im falling sick, I choose to believe someone's missing me. Can someone tell me I'm right? :)

Thing

It's really quite difficult to de-code this meaning, this secret... No this Thing. I dont know what to call it. It's just so confusing, it's hard to think if it's A or B, C or D. It's funny and it's just weird. It's like I'm being given a 1000 piece jig saw puzzle and I'm here alone, to figure it out myself. When I do, everything's gonna fall in place and I'm gonna realize everything happened for a reason,..... right?

Yeah, so why can't we just get to the reason part. This process part is killin' me

Sunday, monday tuesday wednesday

I miss her so much and its not easy to Think Happy Thoughts with her in India probably flirting her ass with all the ladkehs, eating all the fuc-tabulous foods, enjoying the Cool weather cos s'pore is HOT like crazyy. I don't have anyone to rant to about training and be bitchy to. And I wont have a bestie for Jag's bday :( 16 days more feels so long.

Today is Sunday. Why do weekends feel so short?

I watched New Moon last night and oohhh I love to see Bella and Edward so happy together despite the fact that BOTH of them cannot act for peanuts. I think the Vampire Diaries lead roles are wayyyyyy wayyy better. Including looks wise.. But then again, who are we to judge. (I think Jacob Black was a something, though I hate to admit..... He's sucha dick in the book.) Can't wait for Vampire Diaries to release the 11th episode.. It sucks having to know it only comes out next yr. :( For now, maybe Grey's Anatomy?

Last night was nice :) I loved it. :) :) :) :) :)

Cupcakesss

Today I made cupcakes with the Wednesday girlz, just that today is a friday, not wednesday. We were supposed to start baking when we met at 4+ but we ended up going to far east and meeting a friend as well as Mango Lingo!!!!!!! :D And I just found out today that UOB accepts OCBC cards and I can withdraw from there. (That reminds me. I felt so stupid walking 2 levels down yesterday just to draw money when there was a UOB bank just near by..... )

Im so tired now. From pouring ingredients 24 times (hahaha) and scooping boiling water for the cocoa powders.... I need to stop typing. My heels hurt, that makes no sense but I should get to bed. ZzzzzzZzZZ

You are a bitch, you are never gonna change

Remember your first everything

Now I need to CRY. My stomach hurts like MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. I've been trying to drink warm water for the past few dayzzzzz so why isnt this cramps going away :( Make me even more shitty.

I hate waking up to an afternoon full of confusions and black eyes becos I did not wipe my eye liners off last night. I feel so stupid and I cant wait for Vampire diaries Episode 7 to quickly download.

I wish I knew all the answers to my queries without having to ask or it be spoken. I wish I just knew everything becos I was like a mind reader or something.

I think I need a tight slap so that I will wake up and not take every damn thing for granted. Yeah, I need a tight slap.

I think i've watched "A Walk To Remember" a gazillion times, but it never fails to soften me every time I watch it again.

My sister is downloading Kurbaaaaannnnnnnnnnn! 27.1% of it is done!!! In like what? 10 mins!!!!!! Woohooo. I foresee myself watching it tonight tonight tonight. Again :) Made ma boring day come aliveeee :) 28.4% now and 28.7% now.

Find your line find your space

I'm not in the mood to blog about my personal life for the past 2 days. They were too traumatizing (Let me just exaggerate abit). I could feel every part of my body go through with the "fuck-your-life-is-hell-and-depressing" Hormone while it spread itself conveniently throughout. I know I don't make sense, but at least I understand myself and what I felt. I need a Me time soon. Like go catch a movie all by myself and wish the whole world was dead just so that I can do everything and anything without a soul to judge me for who I am and what I do. I feel like the most un-perfect person now but I still cant stop loving myself and standing up for my OWN rights. So Fuck off if you're one of them who loves to make me feel even more un-perfect. (I could stab you right now ... thats how much detest I have in me)

You're gone.

As crazy as this may sound... I feel the world's going to end 2012. Slap me. I know..... At the rate we're going, god's just taking every every every damn soul away. Not from me and I just thank god for that, but.... people around me.

Yeah, I should probably get to bed, stop thinking so much and better catch the 2012.... Better be warned first.

:(

You're causing me to feel like this and its nice, but its weird.

Today I came home from school and Sasha was waiting by the door as I opened it. And then she jumped on me, and started running around the living room like a Mad Dog. Literally. I could feel her excitement and my mum told me it was Sasha's way of saying "Welcome Home, im so glad you're back". That reminds me, my mum's back too. :) And I was filled in about her "forgotten" baggage keys for which she went to the lock'smith to open and found out her keys were all along in her back. My mum sometimes...

I hate work. And that fat bitch. >:( I love coming home after a terrible day of work. I miss Manisha.

Im not hungry... But im snacking every single minute. I cant stop and now I want to eat Chilli crabz. I feel like it NOW. The masala crabs especially, the one shop in little india. I want it with deliciously soft and crispy Naans. I think my mouth is watering....

On a random-er note, MONDAY IS COMING TO AN END! I wanna watch Kurbaan again!

Dua

Why do Monday mornings make you feel so heavy and lazy to get our of bed.... I know I have 5 days to the start of a weekend... 5 days of work again. I know what Monday Bluez feel like, and it so doesnt rock. It makes me feel sad all over again.

Hope your day is going well everyone... Its December tmr.

B is for Blair, B is for Beauty

I've seen so many people write on their facebook statuses their ultimate LOVE for Jacab Black in the Twilight series.... And its so...... Bleh cos they choose him over Edward just becos he's better looking!!!!!!! :( Im still Team Edward. Forever cos Edward = FTW. They need to read the book to fall in love with Edward ♥ .. I have this sudden urge to read the books again!

I'm at work and this is my 2nd post of the day.. FML.

You and I, together we'll be till the end of time

Note: Do not watch Dan Dana Dan. Dont waste your money.

I am shagged. But I have training at 9am. And work after training. Till 6pm. I am tired. But what can I do.

I am tiredly shagged.
I am damn tired.
Damn tired.
Shagged.
Sleep.
Come.
To.
ME.

My stomach hurts too. I have a feeling its gonna be the time of the month.... Is that why im breaking out!? :( Damn sad.

Tommorrow im going to run a 12............ 41s. Hmm really?

Time to get my ass off this comfy bed and air coned room and head down down down my doom.

Sub Kuch Bula Diya Hai

Today, or rather yesterday had been one helluva long day and.... well Im still up. I feel dead tired, but I still want a massage. I just got one, but I want another one. Work is really occupying me. From 9am to the wee hours..... Past training and peoples bed time. I need massage. Massage need meeeee.

And.... I am so sick of running. So sick of wanting to do well but always end up upseting the ones around me. I wanna be free from thisssss.... I wish my choice was a tiny bit easier.

Tee hee hee

Is it just me? Or is everyone just blabbering in some kind of alien language?!

That aside, I'm glad its over. Its no more a worry (inside joke) and I cant wait for Friday!!!!! :D Oh the joyzz of the weekend to be..... ;)

DIFFERENT LEVEL????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK U. Hard. And I make sure this isnt always just about you. It never is, never will be. Different level?! Im still in shock man.

♥♥♥♥♥

Dan so hot

Why cant life be predictable?

I just ate the whole Yammi Yogurt tub. Yeeah, the TUB. the 14oz one... The pack back one. In a span of 30 mins? Alll by myself. Yammi yogurt is soo good... It makes me happy when the whole day's been so .... Mundane. Work makes me feel too adulty already, and I want to go out with my love onezz. I miss them all. Trainingz.... Well training is just training.

I have to work on Saturday.. And Sunday too. Who wants me :( Who loves me

I am still here, I still feel, breathe the same air as you

Just yesterday I got my Semester 4 results and I did terribly bad for one subject... I made so much of noise and felt like shit, thought god was being unfair to me and everyone was against me.... I guess I always over react, sometimes behave so spoilt and pampered... Never really opened up to see worse things that happen to others in the world, let alone our little red dot.

I was randomly flipping the pages of the Newspaper today for sports updates and came across a Particular picture in the obituries page... Someone I know nothing of, just a familiar face, a cousin to a few I know. What can be worse than God showing you his powers in such a way? Definitely not a C-..... My deepest condolences to the late.

9 colours of love

I just came back from a walk with this Baby here... God, I never knew she could be so active at 10.20pm at night. She was practically jumping the whole way through, she loves strangers too.... Not to forget Dogs of the same breed or for the matter of fact, all of them. She loves lizards and likes to lick on cocro creatures. I like night walks just as much as this cutey pie does, because in Decembers the air feels so good, so cool, so refreshing....

I love this tattoo! Its so pretty and colourful and lively! So beautiful... I want something like that

Shukran Allah

All the freaking spikes I want are too big!!!!! So frustratingg! And why is it impossible to order the Chrono INX?! All the freaking websites are only in Japaneseee.... Isnt there any ENGLISH website or place to order them! Help someone!

I kinda like this Edge Dash Adidas one, but its 6.8oz heavy! :( And its freaking blackkkk.. I wont survive with it in Singapore. There are other colours but this looks the pro-est. Should I?

I like this Lite ning 2 one toooo... Its one size biggggg, should I just get it!?

I wis my blog could communicate with me

I feel like eatting Yammi Yogurt and I want the Pack back tub. The biggest one so that I can eat for hours... Im craving for it. But the nearest one to home is Bishan.... :/ Oh that reminds me, there's bubble tea just downstairs my house.. Hmmm

Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart

I'm still not over watching Michael Jackson... I went for training today, and I told my juniors about how awesome Michael did his thing, his rehearsals, the way he practiced his famous crotch dance thing, and the way every song was so unique and they're all like " oh meeeee I wanna watch now! " I wanna watch him again... Every single song he sang yesterday..... I still choose to believe he's alive, he just doesnt want to come out. :( Wished he sang "You are not alone" though..

Work today was a mixture of everything. I entered the Gerneral office 3/4 DEAD at 8.51am, walked to my desk, sat down and thought about what's there to be done today. Waited for YL after while my day just never ended up till 4pm.... I got my damn-bloody-good-massage after eonzzzz. My lower back feel so good that jumps for training were a tad x infinity better!

Tomorrow.... My day starts at 6am.

MICHAEL JACKSON WASNT A ZERO PERFECT CHANCE FOR ME!!!! it was a freaking hundred percent! Omg I cant believe I went. I loved it! He is so good, the company even was better :) I feel so sleepy, but im still recovering from the happy pill dose... I over took!

Firstly, I got my lappie done already. I dont have to use my sister's horrible one that switches off whenever it decides to... Neither do I have to use the one in the Master bed room.. So that's settled... I feel so happy.

Yenyways, the weekends flew by so quickly... I didn't even have time to realized how much fun I had during the past 2 days (the pictures speak for itself) Today I went out with Ama, AFTER centuries. And I got my sweetest overdue birthday present from her. I couldnt stop laughing at the small but memorable times we used to have! I missed being so goody goody looking. I miss my longgggggggg hair... My mum was amazed too, wow. We've all grown up and its no more the times where we're being spoon fed anymore. We're ADULTS, damn it.

Okay besidez that. I WANT TO WATCH MICHAEL JACKSON before it stops showing on tuesday. Tuesday is 2 freaking days away and the chances of me watching it in cinema now is ZERO. Know why? Cos Im working from 9am to 4pm after which I have training till 7pm... So what are the freaking chances? I feel so sad. (I contradict myself so much... Refer to 2 paragraphs up.)

Pyar hum ko bhi hai, pyar tum ko bhi hai
Toh yeh kia silsileh ho gaye?
Bewafaa hum nahi, bewafaa tum nahi,
Toh kyun itne gile ho gaye?

I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life. I’m going to take a stand. I’m going to defend it. Right or wrong, I’m going to defend it.

why my dog so irritating one

Halloween this year has been the best one so far. I wasn't looking forward to it because it was alot of my sister's friends who were invited. Maybe it was cos of that I had my hopes low & it turned out to be awesome. It was just fantasically nice. I made new friends, witnessed girls making out, drank, went mad dancing, took countless pictures.... I can't remember now half the things I did, but I pretty much know I had a hulleva time. Now I need a costume for next year. Haha.

Anyway, yesterday with the shafz was fun too. We went to watch London Dreams which was interesting yet it had a stupid ending. They practically had no nice songs, except one I didn't mind but don't really fancy much. After that we walked all the way from Bugis to Orchard recalling alot of funny & WEIRD(Hahaha to that) memories from last year and 2 years back. Went for some cool dessert and headed home.

I was practically shagged by the time I reached home, I was in bed by 11pm. I think the earliest in forever... I'm so glad for the holidayz anyway. I have so much other things besides school work for about a year. I need to repair my lappie and stop using my sister's one. Soon.

when the roof caved in and the truth came out I just didnt know what to do

Exam and AUT free life has been great-o so far! Celebrated with ma Wednesday girls on Fri, had Halloween party on Sat and Meet up with the Shafz yesterday. It's been too good to be true and as much as I know its not gonna be so great everyday, I'm counting on this kinda life for many thingz.
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I'm so lazy to update but I will when I get back from training! CHAOZ

Today I officially finished my Practical paper, one of my most horrid practicals! I hate practicals!!!! But anyway, thanks for lovely friends who were always there. Lub lub chu. I feel so much better now, and no use crying over spilt milk right....... ITS OVER. Really. I just have one last paper that I am pretty confident about, hopefully we don't get the alternative paper like poor mark did. *touch wood. And I WILL BE DONE with Diploma life. I dont wish to look back at it anymore. 2 years was enough!

People im going to living life after the 30th of Oct, ask me out. WHOEVER everyoneee I wanna be part of your life like how you gonna be part of mineeeeeee ... Okay chaoz!

You are so beautiful, I wish this was never always a dream. Do dreams come true? Do they? Do they? Can someone assure me. I fear its never gonna be like this ever, you make me stay eyes wide, sleep deprived. Boy you got me. You got me going crazy crazy.

Where are you train boy.. I've been looking fer ya. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday I will find for you.

Sometimes you wish you had everything you ever wanted, you wished you could just pick it, maybe even take it off a shelve. For free. But life's not like that. Because you're never going to treasure it unless you paid for it, with your hard learned money. You see that's life. And it makes you sad sometimes.

I'll break all promises to see you

Yesterday's training was sooo fun and like dipna said to me yesterday : "Today's training made me realize why I love running so much". So trueeee that I'm almost excited I have training today! If only we did the same thing we did yesterday. Apart from the fact that I got a seriously bad rope burn after which coach told me in his russian accent "It will hurt for 2-3 days" Very nicely. I mean I like pain right. And I demanded this pain better get me running 11.9s hahaha! :)

9 days to the end of school wow, and 7 days to my personal training practical. Fast. What say you? I shall go attend to my poor arm

I can't freaking sleep because I have this rope burn on my hand. A rather big one too. It hurts like mad just relaxing it. I need helppppp. Yelp yelp. And I need to sleep :(

The pink panadols are no use. No use at all :( My stomach hurt and my muscles are all cramped up. I feel so sticky and restless. Not to forget rather weird because I want to train :(

Jeena tere liye

And its so frustrating when you can't control some of the things that JUST HAPPEN. Yesterday sucked.

Anyway, I just completed my Report! Ya, every single thing of it. I printed it, put it in a folder and now its lying on my bed.... Waiting to be submitted. This project took me months, Im so GLAD its over. I should be starting on my Edgar's Society essay but I haven't even selected my question.... And I dont feel like starting. It feels like going back to months ago when I first started on my report. I have 15 exact days to the end of AUT life, I have to submit my Essay, do my gym internship, sit for my PT practical and Society Theory paper. And I can enjoy all I want for halloween. Oh sweet halloween. I might be going down tomorrow to see what costume I should pick ;) Will updatezz.

Training and my strawberry red tea are just a few hours and minutes away :) Ah the wonders of life. I thought only bad peopl have no life. I just proved myself wrong :/

My love

I should be doing my Workshop 12 now, but I cant fight this urge... I need a break! Not so much of a Kit-kat, but anyway. You know how sometimes people always find a way to solve why they haven't been doing something so well after like maybe a few hours, a few days or many a few weeks later? I realized that like after months and months of failure, yeah. After trying every race, I kept wondering what's happening manzz, i've been trainin so freaken hard. Harder than the last few years or so I think. But something donned on me just a few days ago, while I was walking home (such a weird time right).... You know what that is?

If my heart is not on fire, it doesnt matter how much I trained. I am still going to stay right here, right where I always was. I lost it, I probably did ever since quite long already. But not fer long. I'm coming back, coming back, coming back ma lurveee

After deliciously spicy Ban mian.....

Me to Dipna and Piriyah: Can I tell you something?
Dipna and Piriyah: Yah....
Me: Burrrrrrrrrluuuurrrrrd (hahahahahhaa)
Dipna and Piriyah: Arghh!!

Walking back to school........
Me to Dipna and Piriyah: Can I tell you something?
Dipna and Piriyah: After a sec or 2... NOOOOOOO!
Me: HAHAHA.

I thought alot of people would have seen this cutey pie's video, apparently not. So here's the link! So adorable

http://www.youtube.com/user/markgarza22?blend=1&ob=4

Really... Some people need to get a GRIP. Being Single's not going to kill.

Anyway, I'm finally going to run Sing Opennn. Finallyyyyyy. (You cant imagine. I'm so happy!) This whole week was work work work workkkk. Monday's my sports prac presentation.. As much as I am not prepared, I can't wait for Monday.. One thing down..

28 days before I graduate and my sister's planning a Halloween party! I'm comtemplating.... Blair from Gossip Girl?

In that case, I need a guy who can pull off as Chuck Bass!

I want sexy sexy one ;) But currently I can't find any good soul who fits into that category. So I guess I'll have to scrape Blair out of my head :( Thats so sad. And then I was thinking maybe Pocahontas, Wonderwoman, Cat woman...... Angel (nehh), sexy pirate, hmmm I don't know. Warrior Princess? Hahaha.

Ok, I better get back to my presentation!

You cant be anymore of a dick head so please stop trying. I hate youuuuuuuuuuu get out of my life.

I feel so proud of myself today... I did all my work today. I managed to complete (Kinda) all my Sports fucking ANALysis work. And.... I trained! Even though I was sick and having a terrible headache.

Piriyah taught me a few Tamil words today like 1 to 5 and A B C in tamil and there was this weirdd tamile guy sitting infront of me in the MRT staring while laughing to himself becos I was prolly making a fool out of myself. But it's ok. I learnt not to say "5" in tamil the way I do becos it actually meant the guyssss weeee weeeeeeee hahahha. Thanks P for teaching me! :P

V V V V V V V V V

You can't keep coming into my dreams and expect everything to be okay with me you know.. You can't do that. Not everytime. Not anytime.

She is no you

Sigh

This PT exam... Yeah, its taking a toil on me! I can't stand it anymore.... I've been mugging for a few hours and everytime I tell myself I know what I'm studying, I remember my classmates telling me that "Its A VERY TOUGH PAPER. The questions they ask don't come from the book."

Okay, seriously. What the hell am I studying for then? ARGHHH. It's so frustrating..... Knowing I and another classmate are the morons left back in 1 paper and this 4 days before the paper is KILLING ME. I slept in the afternoon just now and I dreamt my paper was just Minutes away.... And to tell you honestly, I felt so unprepared. I'm confusing. I feel prepared, like I feel I just studied everything, but there is the other side....... That's telling me " NOOOO its never enough "

I don't know if its this stress shit thats making me feel so crappy. I'm actually falling sick.... And I hope this isn't going to be. I have a god damn exam in 4 days, I cannot afford to miss it. I can't afford to not study and GET BETTER, if you know what I mean. I actually also miss my outside friends. I'm such an anti-socialist now, Its hurting so bad. I miss them all.

Like I am going to post in every other post that I blog, ..... I have 5 FREAKING WEEKS.

4 days to PT theory

14 days (2 weeks) to Practicum Presentation

22 days (3 weeks) to Sports Analysis

25 days (3 weeks) to Practicum Submission

37 days (5 weeks) to PT Practical

39 days (5 weeks) to Sports Recreational

Everyday I look at this timetable on my study table and I wish that everyday at LEAST ONE of the papers was over already..... I wish too much.

After all this is my only motivation left to studyyyyy till I probably die. I better get back to some ass shit and my runningly-red-full-of-mucus-nose.....

F*ck your theories

I want to watch the Time travellers wife! And The Ugly Truth! 5 weeks..... Just 5 weeks left.

Anyway, coming back to serious training without slacking because coach is back is not quite as I expected it to be. I'm missing it, & I'm actually liking it. Partly because the weather the past few days have been quite good. Training yesterday at 11am was GOOD because the Sun only came out when I was going home..... Further more, I have such funny training partners... They kinda make training always a tad better! :)

Ok, enough. I need to get back to writing my SAA Report, just that I'm having writter's block. I don't know how to start, even though I have all the information in me. Ugh.

Change

Dipna told me this today during training. "You cannot commit ah?" That really came as a shock to me.

I had the whole afternoon after that to think to myself. Maybe she's right. I can't. I dont think I wanna. It's too much. I can't commit. Its so easy right, just yeah.

These 2 days since coach came back has been sooo freaking long. I woke up at 5am yesterday to go for a 1.5 hour gym observation. It was totally not worth my cab fare and energy to getting up. I spent the whole day out and only got home at 8plus at night. Today yet another day. I dont want to start with it.

Right now, I just need to get over my semester four exams, I need to run a race. I miss competing. I miss the feeling of being there.

My stomach hurts. I mean, abs... That are just no where close to be called abs. Yeah, they hurt. I cann't laugh.

I don't know why but I smell Durians. I think something is really wrong with me because I know this House doesn't have any at this present moment and I F-ing HATE durians.

Did I mention every damn small thing today has been pissing the HELL out of me? Is it because I went to temple. Ha. Irony. Joke. God wants to punish me.

Akk

Exams are coming up. 6 weeks before we are officially done with AUT. I can't believe I made it through. I was expecting so much more stress than this, ( this is actually quite bad ) but i'm so gladddd. Its coming to an end! We're actually ( touch wood ) graduating on the 26th of feb next year. OMG. I'm going to be 20 and so many things are going to change... I'm going to try working for the first time in my life andd omggg everythings changing.

All that apart, I need CHEESY SAUSAGES. soooo badly. I haven't had them since I came back from Germany. I want mango lingo, chilli crabs - insert cute face at Manisha. I want Crystal Jade I want so many things omg I forgot I want Hokkein Mee and Frolick. Fooodddd come to me.

Jab tu muskurati ho

I dont know if it's just me or all the computers in this house is fcked. Damn bloody annoying. I can't even upload some decent pictures here. And my god damn computer just won't switch on.

Yesterday I had masala crabs with Jang, Rohit, Jagz, Sis, Manisha and Vikz. Except that only me and Manisha ate the crabs while every other loser one just ate the normal rice and curry. It was so awesome I think I'm going back there one more time. No two.. Maybe three or four or many more times. I have a sudden craving for it again, like I miss breaking the shells with my teeth and stuff.. Manisha, one day, just you and me k. :)

Anyway, I know I haven't been blogging in forever. Suddenly school has started and the bloody internet is just a bore because everything I see is the same ol' shit.

Piriyah: " Eh add me on my Livejournal okay. Its private. Only friends can see."
ME: "Okay okay I will but my livejournal got someone hack."
Piriyah: " Okay then I help you make new one lah. But I don't know how to add friends"

HAHAHA. Piriyah so cute sometimes!

I had roti prata last night mum, I wish you knew who

Michael Jackson is so awesome. He makes me feel so good. Ok apart from knowing I haven't finished off Workshop 4 when I know I wrote in today's timetable "COMPLETE WORKSHOP 4". I still have until Tuesday right. And I shouldn't do things in a rush :P Workshop 4 is by far the longest and most tiring workshop ever. The questions ask for unnecessary details....

Anyway, I found out my Starhub line expires in September, so mum and me decided to get over with a new phone. Sadly every phone in the line sucked. I think the best one was Omina but YUCK. So I got the same one as my sis, Viewty. :S At least it's better than the one before.

Ok, I gtg back to watching MJ & dinner!

I feel so confused about so many things... It's so difficult to think things through. I dont want anyone to know, I feel so paranoid.

At least some things like ctrl+f5 does help me refresh things (something I just learnt) I need to move on ... Tomorrow... technically today Im going to hopefully finish workshop 3 and 4 so that I will be in time with the class for workshop 5. I need to start on my intership for gym classes and make up lessons, I need to start on my SAA report. I need to get a grip... I think that's what I need.

I also need to do alot of stretching. I forgot to do it today. :S I need to start telling myself training is not something I can choose to not go for.. I mean technically its a choice, but it shouldn't apply to me. I need to be diciplined I need to focus I need to do things right i really need to. But why can't I? Shouldnt everything be better now? Shouldnt it be? Then why isn't it?

Why can't this stupid blogger allow me to upload pictures? :S So annoying. Oh, I need to start sleeping early. I need to be back in hostel and I need to start feeling the pressure of the last semester. I need to go to NTU I need to do omg, S.O M.A.N.Y T.H.I.N.G.S.

Right, bye

You should look at yourself before you speak a word about people not liking others. You should look at your actions before judging others and their actions. Most importantly, you should look at how you speak, before you criticize and whine about every bitchy word the world says to you.

What if I told you I was not what you think I am?

what would u do?

I wish sleep would come to me. I wish I dont have to think so much about how this is affecting me, affecting us. its been 2 freaking days and every time I tell myself its gonna get better, i hear another story.. something that makes me want to know why you're doing this to us, to her... Why youre so cold. You speak so positive words,... are these words just words, mere words but no actions? You scare me, you give me nightmares of the future... What if something so bad happens that I can never forgive you for what you did? What do I do?

Hi! I have not celebrated on my blog about my come back from Germany 2-3 days ago.... There's so many things to do, I mean catch up on... Actually nothing much, but I feel so lazy to be excited about being back. I'm enough with celebrating it with friends who come over and stay till the wee hours of the night/morning, listen to Bhangra songs and accidentally pour Macs sprinklers on my laptop, friends laughing at me, talking to niceeee people, watching hindi movie with cousins who are going back Tomorrow.

And my sister finally got a new dog, Sasha. She's so cutee.. Ok la im bored. Bye

Bu- bu- bu - bu bu bu bu bu Burlin.

Just yesterday I went around Berlin to see some sights. This place is really BEAUTIFUL. I learnt quite a bit of History between East and West Germany. (I did not take History in Sec school so I didn't know) I saw pieces of the Berlin Wall, the American and France Guards, the tombs of people whom Hilter killed... Not literally killed but made them suffer by doing laborious work that killed them after a few years. I saw the Parliament House where a famous artist won the bid to rebuilt the burnt down one......

Let the pictures speak for themselves.

Me at the Parliament House!

Some random car that I was able to lift ;)





A part of the Berliner Dom

The Berliner Dom



MRT service

A part of the Berlin Wall. One of the Best pieces picked.



The side of the West Germany. Where America took over, thus the flags.

The Checkpoint from East to West Germany. Over here people from East Germany tried to go over to West Germany but were killed during the process. Some even went to the extent of hiding under car seats to bypass because of the terrible treatment in East Germany by the Soviets (Russians)

From West to East.

The Guards at the Checkpoint. American and France

The tombs where many people were killed by Hitler.

The German Flag.

A guy who tried to escape from East Germany, but got shot.



This was the Hotel where Michael Jackson held out a baby on the 3rd floor. It is the same Hotel where a room for one night costs $12,000 Euros! = $24,000 SGD

Julia (our Liaison Officer) and me at the Parliament House



A part of the Parliament House. People queue up for HOURS just to enter it!

Parliament House