Michael Jackson is so awesome. He makes me feel so good. Ok apart from knowing I haven't finished off Workshop 4 when I know I wrote in today's timetable "COMPLETE WORKSHOP 4". I still have until Tuesday right. And I shouldn't do things in a rush :P Workshop 4 is by far the longest and most tiring workshop ever. The questions ask for unnecessary details....
Anyway, I found out my Starhub line expires in September, so mum and me decided to get over with a new phone. Sadly every phone in the line sucked. I think the best one was Omina but YUCK. So I got the same one as my sis, Viewty. :S At least it's better than the one before.
Ok, I gtg back to watching MJ & dinner!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I feel so confused about so many things... It's so difficult to think things through. I dont want anyone to know, I feel so paranoid.
At least some things like ctrl+f5 does help me refresh things (something I just learnt) I need to move on ... Tomorrow... technically today Im going to hopefully finish workshop 3 and 4 so that I will be in time with the class for workshop 5. I need to start on my intership for gym classes and make up lessons, I need to start on my SAA report. I need to get a grip... I think that's what I need.
I also need to do alot of stretching. I forgot to do it today. :S I need to start telling myself training is not something I can choose to not go for.. I mean technically its a choice, but it shouldn't apply to me. I need to be diciplined I need to focus I need to do things right i really need to. But why can't I? Shouldnt everything be better now? Shouldnt it be? Then why isn't it?
Why can't this stupid blogger allow me to upload pictures? :S So annoying. Oh, I need to start sleeping early. I need to be back in hostel and I need to start feeling the pressure of the last semester. I need to go to NTU I need to do omg, S.O M.A.N.Y T.H.I.N.G.S.
Right, bye
At least some things like ctrl+f5 does help me refresh things (something I just learnt) I need to move on ... Tomorrow... technically today Im going to hopefully finish workshop 3 and 4 so that I will be in time with the class for workshop 5. I need to start on my intership for gym classes and make up lessons, I need to start on my SAA report. I need to get a grip... I think that's what I need.
I also need to do alot of stretching. I forgot to do it today. :S I need to start telling myself training is not something I can choose to not go for.. I mean technically its a choice, but it shouldn't apply to me. I need to be diciplined I need to focus I need to do things right i really need to. But why can't I? Shouldnt everything be better now? Shouldnt it be? Then why isn't it?
Why can't this stupid blogger allow me to upload pictures? :S So annoying. Oh, I need to start sleeping early. I need to be back in hostel and I need to start feeling the pressure of the last semester. I need to go to NTU I need to do omg, S.O M.A.N.Y T.H.I.N.G.S.
Right, bye
You should look at yourself before you speak a word about people not liking others. You should look at your actions before judging others and their actions. Most importantly, you should look at how you speak, before you criticize and whine about every bitchy word the world says to you.
What if I told you I was not what you think I am?
What if I told you I was not what you think I am?
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
what would u do?
I wish sleep would come to me. I wish I dont have to think so much about how this is affecting me, affecting us. its been 2 freaking days and every time I tell myself its gonna get better, i hear another story.. something that makes me want to know why you're doing this to us, to her... Why youre so cold. You speak so positive words,... are these words just words, mere words but no actions? You scare me, you give me nightmares of the future... What if something so bad happens that I can never forgive you for what you did? What do I do?
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Hi! I have not celebrated on my blog about my come back from Germany 2-3 days ago.... There's so many things to do, I mean catch up on... Actually nothing much, but I feel so lazy to be excited about being back. I'm enough with celebrating it with friends who come over and stay till the wee hours of the night/morning, listen to Bhangra songs and accidentally pour Macs sprinklers on my laptop, friends laughing at me, talking to niceeee people, watching hindi movie with cousins who are going back Tomorrow.
And my sister finally got a new dog, Sasha. She's so cutee.. Ok la im bored. Bye
And my sister finally got a new dog, Sasha. She's so cutee.. Ok la im bored. Bye
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Bu- bu- bu - bu bu bu bu bu Burlin.
Just yesterday I went around Berlin to see some sights. This place is really BEAUTIFUL. I learnt quite a bit of History between East and West Germany. (I did not take History in Sec school so I didn't know) I saw pieces of the Berlin Wall, the American and France Guards, the tombs of people whom Hilter killed... Not literally killed but made them suffer by doing laborious work that killed them after a few years. I saw the Parliament House where a famous artist won the bid to rebuilt the burnt down one......
Let the pictures speak for themselves.
Me at the Parliament House!
Some random car that I was able to lift ;)
A part of the Berliner Dom
The Berliner Dom
MRT service
A part of the Berlin Wall. One of the Best pieces picked.
The side of the West Germany. Where America took over, thus the flags.
The Checkpoint from East to West Germany. Over here people from East Germany tried to go over to West Germany but were killed during the process. Some even went to the extent of hiding under car seats to bypass because of the terrible treatment in East Germany by the Soviets (Russians)
From West to East.
The Guards at the Checkpoint. American and France
The tombs where many people were killed by Hitler.
The German Flag.
A guy who tried to escape from East Germany, but got shot.
This was the Hotel where Michael Jackson held out a baby on the 3rd floor. It is the same Hotel where a room for one night costs $12,000 Euros! = $24,000 SGD
Julia (our Liaison Officer) and me at the Parliament House
A part of the Parliament House. People queue up for HOURS just to enter it!
Parliament House
Let the pictures speak for themselves.
Me at the Parliament House!
Some random car that I was able to lift ;)
A part of the Berliner Dom
The Berliner Dom
MRT service
A part of the Berlin Wall. One of the Best pieces picked.
The side of the West Germany. Where America took over, thus the flags.
The Checkpoint from East to West Germany. Over here people from East Germany tried to go over to West Germany but were killed during the process. Some even went to the extent of hiding under car seats to bypass because of the terrible treatment in East Germany by the Soviets (Russians)
From West to East.
The Guards at the Checkpoint. American and France
The tombs where many people were killed by Hitler.
The German Flag.
A guy who tried to escape from East Germany, but got shot.
This was the Hotel where Michael Jackson held out a baby on the 3rd floor. It is the same Hotel where a room for one night costs $12,000 Euros! = $24,000 SGD
Julia (our Liaison Officer) and me at the Parliament House
A part of the Parliament House. People queue up for HOURS just to enter it!
Parliament House
Sunday, August 16, 2009
You say 4 I say 4
Finally, I can go to the stadium this evening, watch the Men's Semi and Finals, Women's Quarter Final and not worry about anything till Sing Open... I'm FREEEEE. Well of course not from School, and work and some other stuff I shall not mention here. But I'm happyyyyyy but of course jealous. Whatever.
Manisha, I'm 4 days away babyyyyy 4 days away from see ya and you have to tell me everythinggggg that's happening! A to Z.
I'm so e-ffing tired now. Even after 10 mins Ice Bath and 10 mins Massage, my quads are keeeling me. So is my glutes. :( I need some restttt
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Just a few
1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
Haha, kinda.
2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
No, I had fun and learnt from my my mistakes
4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
I seriously cannot remember man
5) Do you regret it?
I would doubt so ;)
6) Have you ever been depressed?
YES many times :P
8) Are you a boy or girl?
Girl
9) What is your relationship status?
Sin-gle
10) How do you want to die?
In the Ocean
11) What did you last eat?
Scrambled Egg and Pancakes with Honey syrup
12) Played any sports?
Yes, running, swimming, badminton, Netball.......
13) Do you bite your nails ?
Sometimes, especially when they go out of shape or they are prolly too long.
14) When was your last physical fight?
I think 10 years back, with my sister
15) Do you have an attitude?
Yup, and I know how to use it ;)
16) Do you like someone?
Yes
17) What is your real name?
Balpreet Kaur Purba
19) Are you gonna get high later ?
No, get high for what Fcuk?
20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Ohhhh, don't ask me this. Definitely.
21) Do you miss someone?
Yes! More the One someone
22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl or cut, it really depends on my mood
23) Do you tan a lot?
No that's because I'm tanned enough training under the Hot sun. (Training does not mean tanning)
24) Have any pets?
Yes, 2 adorableeeeeee hamsters!
25) How exactly are you feeling?
Bored to my wits
26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Yes, and why ever nottttt
27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Nope, but living room got.
28) Would you take any of your exes back?
No no no no never.
29) Are you scared of spiders?
I'm not scared, I despiseeeeee them!
30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Everything happens for a reason. What if I try to go back and get some unfinished stuff completed but screw up halfway?
31) Do you regret anything from your past?
A few that cannot be remembered anymore.
32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Rest, last training day, Run on Sunday, tour the Berlin City and come back HOME!
33) Do you want to have kids ?
I just vowed not to have any after Andy Miller gave me Shocking Massage.
34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
Hahaha, I wish :P Nope, never did
35) Do you type fast?
I think I do ;P
36) Do you have piercings? How many?
2 ears, 1 nose, 1 belly! :)
37) Want any more?
YES tragus!
38) Can you spell well?
YES I CAN. WELL.
39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yes......
40) What are you craving right now?
Hmmm, Pistachios!
41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
Nope
43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, it was so nice.
44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
Nope
45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Yes I would like to think so ;P
46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes..... But I would like Not to think so.
47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I dont know.
49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
I wouldn't minddd!
50) What should you be doing ?
Recovering.. Rejuvenating
51) What’s irritating you right now?
The fact that Im getting emails every 2 mins!
52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Ya
53) Does somebody love you?
Love is a big word. Yes, my parents sister, best friend very much
54) What is your favorite colour ?
Red
55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes, when I was younger
57) Do you have trust issues?
Yes, I trust too easily
60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yes :D With my mumma at least.
62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Nope, they shouldn't anyway.
63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Coach
64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yes, many many times.
65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive. Sometimes it's difficult to forget.
66) Is this year the best year of your life?
I think prolly one of my worst
67) What was your child hood nickname?
Bal .. It still is
68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Yes when I was younger
70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
VERY STRONGLY BELIEVE
71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Used the computer.
73) What is bothering you?
My technique and uncompleted school work
74) Have you ever been out of your province?
Err? YEAH DUH?
75) Do you play the Wii?
No, but I have tried before. *yawns
76) Are you listening to music right now?
No surprisingly but I should now.
77) Do you like Chinese food?
Haha, it's not bad. But nothing can beat Indian food :)
78) Do you know your father's b- day?
Yes
79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Yes.. I mean No
80) Is cheating ever okay?
Yes :P Sometimes
81) Are you mean?
Noooooooooooo.. But I can be
82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
NOOOOOOOO :P It's meant to be dirty
84) Do you believe in true love?
I dont know.
88) Do you like the outside?
No its too bright!!
89) Are you currently bored?
ZUPER DUPER
90) Do you wanna get married
Not exactly.
91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Hahaha, I dont know. Cute is not the word.
92) Are you hungry?
YES, spot me when I am not!
93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
Not straight but accumulated maybe?
94) What makes you happy?
When I succeed.
95) Would you change your name?
Hahah no I doubt so.
96) Ever been to Alaska?
Noooooo
98) Do you watch the news?
Sometimes, rarely.
99) What's your zodiac sign?
TAURUSSSSSS.
100) Do you like Subway?
LURVE IT
101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes, I dont want to ever.
103) Do you talk like your friends?
No, I am unique! :)
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
YES SO MANY TIMES!!!!!! WAHAHA
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
YES! A few
107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Shaliiiiiiii
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes, I hate it to the MAX and back to MIN.
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deeeepp huh? I can't remember
110) Can you count to one milllion?
No, why ever should I? Do I get paid for it
Haha, kinda.
2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
No, I had fun and learnt from my my mistakes
4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
I seriously cannot remember man
5) Do you regret it?
I would doubt so ;)
6) Have you ever been depressed?
YES many times :P
8) Are you a boy or girl?
Girl
9) What is your relationship status?
Sin-gle
10) How do you want to die?
In the Ocean
11) What did you last eat?
Scrambled Egg and Pancakes with Honey syrup
12) Played any sports?
Yes, running, swimming, badminton, Netball.......
13) Do you bite your nails ?
Sometimes, especially when they go out of shape or they are prolly too long.
14) When was your last physical fight?
I think 10 years back, with my sister
15) Do you have an attitude?
Yup, and I know how to use it ;)
16) Do you like someone?
Yes
17) What is your real name?
Balpreet Kaur Purba
19) Are you gonna get high later ?
No, get high for what Fcuk?
20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Ohhhh, don't ask me this. Definitely.
21) Do you miss someone?
Yes! More the One someone
22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl or cut, it really depends on my mood
23) Do you tan a lot?
No that's because I'm tanned enough training under the Hot sun. (Training does not mean tanning)
24) Have any pets?
Yes, 2 adorableeeeeee hamsters!
25) How exactly are you feeling?
Bored to my wits
26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Yes, and why ever nottttt
27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Nope, but living room got.
28) Would you take any of your exes back?
No no no no never.
29) Are you scared of spiders?
I'm not scared, I despiseeeeee them!
30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Everything happens for a reason. What if I try to go back and get some unfinished stuff completed but screw up halfway?
31) Do you regret anything from your past?
A few that cannot be remembered anymore.
32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Rest, last training day, Run on Sunday, tour the Berlin City and come back HOME!
33) Do you want to have kids ?
I just vowed not to have any after Andy Miller gave me Shocking Massage.
34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
Hahaha, I wish :P Nope, never did
35) Do you type fast?
I think I do ;P
36) Do you have piercings? How many?
2 ears, 1 nose, 1 belly! :)
37) Want any more?
YES tragus!
38) Can you spell well?
YES I CAN. WELL.
39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yes......
40) What are you craving right now?
Hmmm, Pistachios!
41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
Nope
43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes, it was so nice.
44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
Nope
45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Yes I would like to think so ;P
46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes..... But I would like Not to think so.
47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I dont know.
49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
I wouldn't minddd!
50) What should you be doing ?
Recovering.. Rejuvenating
51) What’s irritating you right now?
The fact that Im getting emails every 2 mins!
52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Ya
53) Does somebody love you?
Love is a big word. Yes, my parents sister, best friend very much
54) What is your favorite colour ?
Red
55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes, when I was younger
57) Do you have trust issues?
Yes, I trust too easily
60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
yes :D With my mumma at least.
62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Nope, they shouldn't anyway.
63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Coach
64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yes, many many times.
65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive. Sometimes it's difficult to forget.
66) Is this year the best year of your life?
I think prolly one of my worst
67) What was your child hood nickname?
Bal .. It still is
68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Yes when I was younger
70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
VERY STRONGLY BELIEVE
71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Used the computer.
73) What is bothering you?
My technique and uncompleted school work
74) Have you ever been out of your province?
Err? YEAH DUH?
75) Do you play the Wii?
No, but I have tried before. *yawns
76) Are you listening to music right now?
No surprisingly but I should now.
77) Do you like Chinese food?
Haha, it's not bad. But nothing can beat Indian food :)
78) Do you know your father's b- day?
Yes
79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Yes.. I mean No
80) Is cheating ever okay?
Yes :P Sometimes
81) Are you mean?
Noooooooooooo.. But I can be
82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
NOOOOOOOO :P It's meant to be dirty
84) Do you believe in true love?
I dont know.
88) Do you like the outside?
No its too bright!!
89) Are you currently bored?
ZUPER DUPER
90) Do you wanna get married
Not exactly.
91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Hahaha, I dont know. Cute is not the word.
92) Are you hungry?
YES, spot me when I am not!
93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
Not straight but accumulated maybe?
94) What makes you happy?
When I succeed.
95) Would you change your name?
Hahah no I doubt so.
96) Ever been to Alaska?
Noooooo
98) Do you watch the news?
Sometimes, rarely.
99) What's your zodiac sign?
TAURUSSSSSS.
100) Do you like Subway?
LURVE IT
101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes, I dont want to ever.
103) Do you talk like your friends?
No, I am unique! :)
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
YES SO MANY TIMES!!!!!! WAHAHA
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
YES! A few
107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Shaliiiiiiii
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes, I hate it to the MAX and back to MIN.
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Deeeepp huh? I can't remember
110) Can you count to one milllion?
No, why ever should I? Do I get paid for it
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Distances and laughs
Early tomorrow morning we will be out of Dusselfdolf, taking the local plane out of here. Out of Golden Tulip hotel that is away from civilization and everywhere. Thank god we went out to town by train, if not I would have cursed and swore.... Telling everyone around me never to visit Dusseldolf. This city is full of buildings and buildings... More of an industrial city then one to tour and sight see.
Just now during dinner one of the coaches(shall not mention the name) told us he went to the River that was 2kms away from our Hotel and saw a few couples "fucking" (in his language) Then he went on to telling us one of his stories about how some unknown admirer gave him a bikini and panties for some occasion that led to "guys smelling girls panties" It got so intense and rlly HILARIOUS the whole table of Maldives and Singaporeans burst out laughing. I wish I recorded the whole "porn" discussion so that I could upload it, sadly I did not. Ha, anywayyyy goodnighttt see me in Berlin!
Will you be there every time it rains,
because I want to be a part of the rain,
like how you will be a part of me
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Ha, I decided to go back to my old blogskin format. So much easier. Anyway I am already in Dusselfdolf's Tulip Golden hotel where I can't have a room to myself anymore... but that doesn't matter. What matters is that i'll be back in 9 days timee and OMG. 9 days!
I just ran my second race here in Dusselfdolf stadium. I didn't do well again but my timing was 0.04s faster. Got a very thorough massage from Andy Miller and I was aching so badly after that. His massage totally killed me. I had people nearby stopping to look at who was screaming in the background while other athletes sniggering their asses off I bet. I'm just wishing my bad performance this WHOLLLEEE year is due to my poor flexibility and tightttttt muscles.
9 days!!!! 9 days to seeing my sister, mum, Manisha, and all the important people in my life. 9 days to damn good bubble tea and good singapore food, 9 days to watching movies in the theatres!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Goodbye bremen
Just tomorrow morning we will be leaving for Dusseldolf... A part of me is happy we're finally getting it on, 10 more days till I get home.. But there's this part that's gonna miss the great company here.. Those really kind and hospitable hosts we have here who were most of the time at our service.
Anyway tmr is also my 2nd race here in Germany, Duesselfolf. *cross fingers.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Miles apart
Blogger seems to be my best friend, ever since I left the one in Sg to come here and since I dont have a writting journal. Today was awful. I woke up with Swollen eyes that were HALF my eye size. It was so painful. On top of that, we had to go to the stadium at 10am (considering I already slept at 2am last night) to wait for the president to come and what not. The sun was blazing hot, and my head was spinning badly. Some people had to just piss me off that the same time, it's as though they know when to do it : RIGHT WHEN I FUCKING DONT NEED THEM TO.
So anyway, I did not go to the Brewery because I needed to do my work.. Ended up just writing ONE shit ass paragraph for my Report that is due next week. (tell me I am fucked) Then I went to sleep after Mum called for about 4 hours. I feel so fresh now after having a long Hot shower and Filet-O-Fish to eat now. I need to get back to writing my Report.
Goodnight Singapore
So anyway, I did not go to the Brewery because I needed to do my work.. Ended up just writing ONE shit ass paragraph for my Report that is due next week. (tell me I am fucked) Then I went to sleep after Mum called for about 4 hours. I feel so fresh now after having a long Hot shower and Filet-O-Fish to eat now. I need to get back to writing my Report.
Goodnight Singapore
Thursday, August 6, 2009
I just finished my race in Berlin and took the 3 hr train back to Bremen.. My first race here was terrible, I dont know how to put it into words. Every time I think of it, it's like thinking I ran that race 2 years ago.. And not just that... This race timing was one of my Worst 2 years ago... Sadly it's one of my Best this year. Won't you ever wonder what's really wrong when everything looks perfect. I mean I grew bigger for a reason right. I improved my technique for a reason, So why isnt the reason helping me? It's so freaking shameful. I'm so ashamed, frustrated, sad, ahhh whatever you name it. I feel so terrible.
Is it just me, or am I really just waiting to come back home... I miss my family so damn much I don't like it here. I really don't. Speaking of home, I can't wait to hear swearings from my coach about how lousy I am and " What happened?" Followed by "Why so slow".... Maybe I did not deserve this.
I wish all this was just a dream....
Is it just me, or am I really just waiting to come back home... I miss my family so damn much I don't like it here. I really don't. Speaking of home, I can't wait to hear swearings from my coach about how lousy I am and " What happened?" Followed by "Why so slow".... Maybe I did not deserve this.
I wish all this was just a dream....
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