Dear God,

I never really needed you so badly but I need you now. I need you to help me get a final decision. Help me decided firmly what I need. Help me help my coach.. Help me make the ones around me happy, I need you to help me.

I feel I can see my future so blur, and everything is so changeable, so changeable it sometimes scares you away. It makes you want to just go the route that everybody takes and the route that is safe. But is that what I want to become unique?